I'm going to be plain with you, because that's the only register that works for the people who land here.
You have read more about your situation than the average person ever will. You've probably tried more than you'd admit out loud. The fact that none of it stuck is not a character problem. It's an architecture problem. The architecture you were handed wasn't built for someone in your room.
I built this engagement because for years I watched people in your exact position pour resources into the wrong tools because nobody had built the right ones for them. The doctors couldn't help past a certain point. The therapists couldn't move fast enough. The friends had skin in the game. The retreats had Instagram accounts. The room you actually needed didn't exist, so I built it.
And the thing I want to be plain about, because it is the entire shape of how this works: if we work together, you are not hiring a coach. You are adding a permanent member to the room around your most important decisions — the same way you'd add the right CFO, the right attorney, the right physician. The kind of person you keep on file. The work is calibrated to make you the person who doesn't need it anymore — that's the only success metric I care about. And then the door stays open. Years later, when something hits, you will know how to reach me, and I will pick up. Short-term cuts. Long-term file. Both are what this is.
If you're ready, the form is below. If you aren't sure yet, that's also fine. Read the books. Walk for a week with the question. The door doesn't close. What I won't do is sell you. If you have to be convinced to do this, this isn't the engagement for you.
— Kohdi.
Founder · Beyond Sober · Year Nine